December 2008
31 posts
AGREED!
“The world is a beautiful place to be born if you don’t mind happiness not always being so very much fun if you don’t mind a touch of hell now and then just when everything is fine because even in heaven they don’t sing all the time.”
-L. Ferlinghetti, Pictures of the Gone World
Ahhh, three post in one day, I’m gonna sleep!
“I never dreamed you’d leave… You said you would be here when it...”
– Common ft. Lauryn Hill - Retrospect for Life
So the deed is done
i stepped up to my plate, did you?
January 2009. Can we start off with a really clean slate and not fuck up in our lives anymore.
I can’t do that anymore, really can’t afford to do that anymore. And i am never trusting other people to tell me how other ppl are, ”OH HE’S HELLA NICE, HE’S A NICE GUY… BLAH BLAH BLAH” all bullshit. Why did i have to deal...
Maaaan
this blows. i’m hella scared and i hella admit it. fuckkkkk my liiiiiiiiifeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!
Weekend Getaway, FAST!
time to kick it with my ridahhdies, so lucky i have that.
Family + Ridahhdies, all a bitch needs. Hoping to start on some christmas shopping, yes i said START. I’m just now starting. Well time to pack clothes for the weekend. Ate at the thai food place we eat at in Castro, and why we always get the same table all the time. Fuccck 20 more minutes til the 17. or 55 more minutes for the M....
better together than apart.
THIS SHIT IS TAKING A FUCKING TOLL ON ME. YOU HAVE NO UNDERSTANDING OF HALF THE EMOTIONS I GO THROUGH EVERYDAY!
I’m so angry. at myself. at you. at your lack of support. at my lack of resources.
every reason lies, cause you know the truth inside you’re feeling like a coward…but you still gotta ride let the years pass em by never really knowing why - LIVING LEGENDS
I hate...
Home sweet home
AAAAAAAHHH!! MY DAD MADE BABY BACK RIBS!! I MISSS THOSEEEE
IM GLAD MY DAD IS HOMEEE lol
:)
my baby nephew got me something from coach :( oh nooooooo. i have nothing to give, until AFTER christmas. this blows!
P.S. the big day didnt fall through, again on Monday :(
BUT FECK IT, MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!
I AM MUSIC TOUR
fucccccck, tell me why I just came back from the Weezy tour in Oakland, and I didn’t even know i was going until I got off work. It all happened so fast, I got off work. I got a phone call. I texted. I got on the 28, got off at the apt. and got ready to go. Then I was there.
sad part of the night, my brand new shirt got a freakin stain on it from alcohol cause bitches wanna be rude and bump...
I confess that in 2008 I...
steffigayle:
WAAAIT. first, lol YES sweatin on the 17 in the non-unattractive way =D
[ ] painted a picture [ ] wrote a poem [x] ran [ ] shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch [x] posted a blog on MySpace [ ] visited a foreign country [x] cut in a line of waiting people [x] told someone you were busy when you weren’t [ ] partied to celebrate the new year [x] cooked a disastrous meal [x]...
2:17 AM.
fuck i have work at ten.
i can’t sleep. my sister isnt even home yet to bring me lemon bread thingy from starbucks. tomorrow (wednesday) is the big day. scaaary. anyways, AJ and I finally did something other than sleep.
Sunday was my lazy/productive day. Lazy cause i just wore sweats all daaaay and productive cause i cleaned the kitchen, did laundry, and was in the process of cleaning my...
“the heart knows where it wants to be, but the mind always changes its direction....”
– swooped from jared, i owe you for forgetting your bday shindig.
the coldest winter
that is correct.
can’t wait til this bullshit ass season goes away.
YESS MAAAM!
School is finally over, it was over for me yesterday after i took my last final! I mean i have one more re-write to do and email for my 214 class cause apparently she wanted me to do my paper exactly like her example…(WTF? BOOOORING!) i personally thought dividing my categories based on the cities ive lived in is better than dividing them into different personalities which are : quiet.....
Tough out here
haha maan i was looking at my pay stub and it is NOT THE BUSINESS!!!
can you believe, year to date i’ve only made around 3800. 3800/400 (my rent…to SHARE a room) is only 9.5 not even 12 for 12 months in a year. FUUUUUUUUCK dude. how am i living in this expensive ass city? Plus my student loans only covers for tuition and maybe like 2 dollars left over and then for books i used up my...
“So much on my mind I just can’t recline…I can’t take it...”
– Respiration (Mos Def) ..I miss listening to a lot of songs like these, if only my brother didnt lose all my hip-hop cd’s >:/
REMINDER TO SELF:
Useful Links for LAKOTA WOMAN research paper
http://www.djmcadam.com/ojibwe.html http://ncptsd.va.gov/ncmain/publications/publications/wsah/wsah_culturallycomp_table.html http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20080528113029AAXCZu5 http://cas.umkc.edu/casww/natamers.htm http://www.literacynet.org/lp/namericans/values.html...
Tried to ignore it
I need to realize that yeah im going through this shit. And yea it’s not gonna be easy. And yea the thought might haunt me and that on top of that i have finals to worry about. I’m stressing a lot. Life is really tough, but i just need to accept these things and move the fuck forward. I really feel stuck, and this is probably the hardest thing i will have to overcome in my life.
I...
So that explains it
dude i feel like i just woke up haha.
I hate the winter time because i get siccccck. im just a summer type of person, but going to play in the snow is always fun and stuff. and cuddling toooo.
Haha. fuck i have two finals tomorrow, all about kinesiology, which i know really nothing of. not the terms or body parts. i just know deltoids, pecs, biceps, triceps, quadriceps, gluteus maximus, HAHA....
Reminder to Self
I should post this on here so im constantly reminded, since i always go on Tumblr. I should do this for myspace too. Websites that distract meeeeeee :( oh, maybe i should do that to facebook also. LOL I have a research paper to do on the implications of the fact that Obama was elected by Americans of every ethnicity, race, gender (male and female, straight and gay)...
What's my talent?
I always wondered.
Realize
I need to start doing my hw. so far, im reading the Lakota Woman autobio i was suppose to have read during Thanksgiving Break. planning on finishing that up tonight.
Then, tomorrow, sunday, going to start on my research paper proposal and see if i can use that paper for my VIAL class also for some extra credit since it talks about American Life. I realized that the paper I had a D on (woulda...
Scars
I hate how you can’t really forget about them, cause they’re right there >:/
On another note, krusty is finally thirteen. siblings grow up so fast :\ i’m hella mean to her sometimes but she know how it is. I want Tap Ex. and fuckk i think im getting sick againnnnn WTF man, i just got that damn flu over with. Ugh! And maaaan Aj always sleep hella early!
1:16 AM
My brother Markus, Nona, Krysta and I (and my brother’s gf Ivy via Telephone) had a “roundtable” discussion. and we all agreed that there is a motif. &so far he knows how we feel about him yet he never took the time to make us think any different. whats with the front dude?
We took Toby with us in BART. he was kinda freaked out from the loud ass noises and he was...
Happy Birthday Moms!
Yea so i’ve been awake calling my work every hour to see if i can talk to any of the managers about my shift today, yesterday i only had two people that i could possibly switch my shifts with and i got turned down. so now, im just trying to get my shift covered all together :( but its so i can go have dinner with moms and the fammmmm. mmmm STEAMED FISH is the shit.
I give up on school....